There’s A Storm A-Brewin’

This weekend here on the west coast, we are expected to get hit by a couple storm systems, causing hurricane force winds, flooding and generally crappy conditions, some of which is from the remnants of Typhoon Songda. While my home has the comfort of a generator and plenty of food and water, I find myself looking forward to this. I love a good storm! There’s something so organic about howling wind, torrential downpours and hearing limbs and trees give way near and far. I’m not saying there aren’t scary moments or that it doesn’t have the potential to be disastrous for the coast, but a good hearty, “HEAR ME ROAR!” from Mother Nature now and again is exciting and gives me a sense of renewal.

I remember back in 2006 when the weather was absolutely horrific. We were without power for a few days and had to stay with family because we had no means to heat anything/cook at our house. My son was 1 year old, my girls 3 and 5, and all three grew restless easily, but being with family made things bearable. It poured for days and winds were 65+ MPH. Trees and power lines were down, siding was peeling off of houses, roofs were blowing away and there was so much flooding. We were inconvenienced for a few days…we were tired of one another and annoyed with being in the same house day in and day out. There were those that took advantage of the worsening conditions, which some thought dangerous, but it still brought a sense of joy to see people having a good time while there was so much destruction happening around us. All in all, we made it though…but it was definitely one for the books around this area. The forecasters say this storm is supposed to be worse, so keep your fingers crossed that we make it out of this one generally unscathed.

Grays Harbor Storm Dec 2006

Of course none of this compares to Hurricane Matthew that recently devastated the Bahamas, Florida, Georgia, and North and South Carolina. My heart genuinely goes out to those affected along the Atlantic coast. If you would like to donate to any of the relief funds for those involved, please consider clicking on any of the following organizations:

Red Cross


Samaritan’s Purse

The Salvation Army


The storm wasn’t as bad in my area as they thought it would be. We definitely had some wine, flooding and power outages, but nothing catastrophic. All is well!


The Decision

After graduation in June, I applied for and was accepted into graduate school. I set my start date to September 1, 2016 and set about to enjoy my summer with the kids. I was excited and looking forward to being able to set my own pace and schedule, until I thought about the student loan dept I currently haimg_1345d and the deadlines I’d be expected to adhere to. I was especially leery since I had applied to a program that I didn’t really want to take. I’d been going to school for 4 years for human services/psychology and was about to embark on a career toward business administration.

I know…you’re thinking “Just how in the hell are those things even related?” Well, they aren’t. I talked things out with my boyfriend, who happens to be super supportive and he told me to go with my gut and quit school and start looking for a job. I stewed about it for a couple more days until I emailed my enrollment coach and broke the news to her. I immediately felt like an enormous weight was lifted from my shoulders!

Next came the job hunt, which is done 99% online these days. So far I’ve had to go in for a skills test (typing/10 key) and have had an interview. I’m very confident that I will get the job I interviewed for, as it went very well! I answered all their questions without hesitation, they liked the questions I asked them, and we all got along very well. I’m excited at the prospect of having a job by the end of the month! In the meantime, I’m still applying for jobs and waiting for the “Congratulations!” email. Wish me luck!!!



So, I have a bachelor’s degree now…

I graduated two days ago and since then I’ve been extremely emotional. If you look at me wrong, say the wrong thing, take too long to respond to me, I lose it emotionally. I’ve cried at least ten times in the last 48 hours, and it’s getting ridiculous. I know it isn’t because I graduated from college, I think it has more to do with not knowing what the future holds for me.

Talking about future prospects freaks me out because I’ve been out of the workforce for so many years and have been a student for the last four years….it’s daunting to think about getting a job right now because I want to get my masters. Also, I’m having a hell of a time figuring out where to even look for a job. Do I want to look where I currently live or where I hope to live in the future? There are many factors that will weigh that decision, but I’m not sure I’m capable of having those conversations right now.

I’m proud of myself for having made it this far and part of me is scared to stop, due to the fact that I may never find the time to go back!

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Me and my bestie, Tish!

A New Fascination

For Mother’s Day this year, one of the presents that my boyfriend bought me was the graphic novel, Tanpopo. He had been reading Preacher and raving about how amazing it was, but I never expected that I would end up liking/looking forward to reading graphic novels or comics. He figured I would enjoy it, as I enjoy drawing manga characters and love to read. After devouring Tanpopo in a day, I promptly ordered Tanpopo, Volume 2, along with Fun Home: A Family Tragicomic, Giant Days and Hark! A Vagrant.

That’s a lot of hyperlinks, I know… don’t feel obligated to check them out, but if you are interested at all, then by all means…enjoy! I started reading Tanpopo, Volume 2, but it wasn’t holding my interest like the first one. Fun Home was fairly complex and definitely not for kids. My favorite so far was probably Giant Days even though it is meant for teens and took less than an hour to read.

Now I have the urge to go to the comic store and purchase the entire Giant Days series, and related series along with books that I find appealing due to the cover art, lol.



I Finally Did It!

I got a tattoo! Not just any tattoo mind you, but a tattoo that I care very deeply about. I talked about the meaning in my last post (which was forever ago). My boyfriend, Victor bought me a gift certificate for Christmas this last year and him and I both went in on January 8th and got tattooed with the words “ANAM CARA,” which is Gaelic for Soul Friend.

In the process…

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The finished product!



And Victor’s too!


I’m really happy with the way they turned out. I’m already planning my next one! 🙂

Mo Anam Cara

The ancient Celts believed in a soul that radiated about the body. They believed that when two individuals formed a deep and lasting bond that their souls would mingle. Therefore, each person could be said to have found their “anam cara”, or “soul friend.”


I may not know much in life, but I do know that I’ve experienced finding my soul mate, and it feels amazing! I’m more in love now than I’ve ever been in my life, and I’m bursting at the seams to tell the beginning of our love story.

It happened on an ordinary day, near the river, at “the moon.” Sitting in the car, side by side, holding hands. The tension between us so great that it was practically tangible. We kept looking at one another, wondering who is brave enough to jump first…what would happen afterwards…what is happening…is this for real? You jumped first, I responded, it…was…. pure bliss, and it was really, actually happening! The second our lips touched I knew you were someone special. After a sharp inhale and the slowest possible exhale to date, I knew that my life would never be the same. After our souls met, I felt my own respond with “Oh there you are. I’ve been looking for you,” and I’ve been madly in love with you since that very moment.

We have a story to tell, you and I. We have a beautiful start to a rewarding and lasting love that not everyone has the opportunity to experience. I’m glad we’re on this journey together sweetheart, because there’s nowhere else I’d rather be.

I love you to the moon!

Pull of the Moon

The Moon and Ocean

You are excited and filled with energy
When you speak you speak with confidence
An assuring tone is heard when condoning a friend
The light that shines from your presence is as bright as the stars
You are always the one that cast the shadows upon the world
You are the light in the dark
The crescent shape in the dark sky
The bringer of fear and nightmares but yet eternal rest
You are the power behind flowing tides
You are the life in the night
You are the strength behind everyone’s will to rise another day and fight on
You are the push

I am the dark flowing pool of life
The one object that separates the great nations
The tranquil being
But violent when the season sees fit
A threat to those that dare challenge me
I control the destiny of every ship that sails
Sink or swim is the command I give
I am ruthless yet forgiving
To show respect is my game


A nightmare that can appear at any moment
A force that seems to stop time in its tracks
I hold many secrets though at times you exploit them
I am the calm in the midst of the storm

We know no bounds and no restrictions
We are the two spirits the rule the night
Spirits that flow one behind the other in a pond of balance
You are push and I am pull
You are life and I am death
You are good and I am evil
You are peace and I am chaos
You are the tiger and I am the dragon
You are destiny and I am fate
I am Yin you are Yang
Forever maintaining balance through the night
The Moon and Ocean